5 am

As I sit here with my downstairs neighbor, husband and three other friends, I realize that all of these people are most awesome and I am thankful for having them all in my life. They are all energetic and love having a good time. It is good to see my husband smiling and having a good time. He works so hard and would come home so many times in a poor mood and not wanting to do anything. Now he is so full of energy and ready to get things done. Since he's been home we have already cleaned out the closet, rearranged the bedroom, cleaned the kitchen, steam cleaned the carpets and got all of our computers updated and upgraded. It has been an interesting 4 days.

I was able to borrow money from my mom and grandmother today. When I went to my grandmother's house (well my aunt's house really) I just felt that she was helping me only because I am her granddaughter. I gave her a hug and said thank you, but she just didn't return the hug. That made me feel really unloved. I don't know if it was because my aunt was there and she didn't want my aunt to say anything to her about her giving me money. I don't know, I'm just talking out my butt.

Things at my mom's was good. I got to spend time with the kiddos and be goofy. I was even able to get copies of our resume so we can go job hunting this week. We found a really good job opportunity that we applied too. It's a storage facility that is looking for a couple to basically run everything. The couple would take care of all the customers, new storage rentals, basic maintenance et al. There is also a two bedroom two bathroom apartment on the grounds that is rent free, the utilities are paid for and they provide you with internet for free too. On top of all that good stuff, the couple would also get 1250 monthly per person. That's 2500 dollars that all we'd (if we got the job) have to pay is our phone bill, gas and food. We'd be able to get out of debt with that, save money to get a good car and put a down payment on a house, and actually be able to have proper dinner dates, help out our true friends when they needed us, and maybe even be able to afford insurance so I could find out what is wrong with my body and if I can have kids or not.

I will be alright if we don't get that job. But it would be freaking awesome if we were able to get that or my husband was able to get something that he not only would have fun doing, but it would give us the financial that we are searching for. I can honestly say that I have been rather positive for the past few days. Maybe it's because my husband's mood has changed and I know that he's much happier or the fact that we have all this time together and we are relaxed.

Love my life right now. Hope this feeling lasts.